Hello Everyone!! I’ve missed y’all and I hope you all have missed me too! Well there’s been so many things going on in my life and so many changes every day! I’m going to update you all, but it’ll have to be in a few blogs.. Don’t want to write the book, but I probably could with the whirlwind that goes on in my life! But as I was meditating this morning, I had a revelation that I had to share. I know God shows me things that HE wants me to share, and that’s why HE gave me the gift of communication.

This morning as I was having breakfast, I was just reminiscing on where I’ve been in life and all that i’ve been through. I looked through my old pictures, and I looked at my new pictures. There was a big difference in my old and new pictures. The big difference was that in my old pictures, they were full of friends, family, house parties I had, events I planned. In my new pictures, it was only me. Then I realized what God was saying to me. HE was letting me know that now I live for me and Him. I thought my life was full when I made everyone else happy. I went out of my way to make sure anyone around me was happy. I threw the best parties, I had the best Sunday dinners, I did everything extra to make everyone else happy. If anyone needed me, I was there in a heartbeat! I gave all of me to everyone accept me. When I moved to Charlotte, I was lonely because I was missing my friends and my family. I didn’t have all those people around me everyday to make “them” happy. I questioned God when I got here as to why HE was sending me here all alone. Everytime I had a small doubt that something wouldn’t work it, it did, and in a big way! It was like God was making sure everything went perfect to keep me here. So finally I got used to being alone, then I discovered who I was. I realized I liked serenity. I like peace and quiet. I like cooking for “me”. I like taking me out, and doing what I like to do. So today, I had as Oprah would say, “an a-ha moment.”

Today I realized that God moved me away from everyone, because He knew that I would never leave my friends and family. He knew that when anyone called and needed me, I’d stop doing everything I wanted to do, to make sure they were ok. He knew I wouldn’t take care of me, for taking care of everyone else. So HE knew that HE had to remove me from the equation so HE could give me what I deserved and what HE had in store for me. God had to move me, to get all the people out of my life that were hindering me from receiving HIS blessings. The people that I cared so much for, HE showed me that they were never about me, it was about what I was to them. So when I had nothing to offer them, they were gone. It’s a little tough when you realize that you’ve spent so much of your life taking care of everyone, being everything to everybody, then you discover you really didn’t have anybody. The people that remained true are the ones that God wants you to focus your attention on. I know we all suffer with trying to take care of everyone, but what are you doing to yourself? Who’s loving you?

So today I know who I am! It took me 50 years to learn and discover this. I know God has so much in store for me now that I can see HiM and I have the time to give HIM all of me! He removed the distractions from my life. The ones HE didn’t remove, HE opened my eyes to realize they weren’t in my corner, or they didn’t care about me, and they weren’t going in the direction HE was guiding me. I say this to let someone know, that it’s ok for people to be removed from your life. God has to remove them so you can be ready for what HE is about to do for you. If you aren’t ready for something, God will not give it to you. If you have people in your life that will hinder you from receiving God’s blessings, HE will remove them. Once you are free from the bondage of the so-called friends, you will see the friends and family that was, and always will be there for you. And in my heart, I still love everyone who crossed my path. Even if God removed them, I truly love people from the heart, and I’m sure they all knew that. I may cut them from my life, but I know I will always hold a piece of them because they were once important to me, and that you can’t lose. It’s ok, to still care about them, but also know they weren’t meant to go where you are going.

Why do I share this? Because being the “Real Mommie Teresa” I want to give this to you all before you get old, waste a lot of time trying to please other people while neglecting yourself. Once my children were grown, that’s when I should have started living for me. But it’s really hard to take care of “you”, when all your life, you’ve been the nurturer. Discover who you are, take some time away from everyone to see who really matters. Stop being the Go To person. Ask God what it is HE has for you, and if you are ready, He’ll show you. So who’s loving me? I AM, and I love loving me!

I’M BACK!!!
Hugs and Love
“THE REAL MOMMIE TERESA”