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blessing, children, death, faith, family, God, grief, happiness, life, Love, mental-health, Prayer
So it’s been a while since I’ve had something positive to say! Like my Bigma said, “If you ain’t got nothing good to say, don’t say nothing at all!” I went with the “don’t say nothing at all part”. Why? There was so much grief in my life. As soon as I thought I was back to me, another loss happened. That last one took some of my soul away! Why? It wasn’t just the loss. It was everything that came with it. I had to recover, readjust, realign, and release all those things! I’ve done all of that. Now I can remember who I am. I know whose I am and understand the purpose GOD has for my life. It’s not about dwelling on the negative. It’s about promoting and embracing the positives. This will make me better and everyone linked to me. So I’m back for the better!
I spent the Thanksgiving holiday with my middle son, Tyrell, his wife, Lanie, and my grandbabies, Charlie and Alex. My other Grandbaby, Halana, also came over, and she even cooked some of the food! That’s growing up! Ty was my sous chef, and he learned some of the recipes that were handed down through the generations. Christina was in NJ with her new Fiancé! Oh yeah, a lot has happened since I’ve been gone. She met the love of her life, and he put that ring on it. LOL I’ll write about it soon. RC was working as usual and didn’t make it. But that’s another story for later. What was important was that I was THANKFUL! I was truly happy spending almost 6 days at the house with the grands, and I didn’t even leave! Enjoying genuine love from the seeds that I created. Waking up every morning to Grandmaaaaaa was heart-warming, and I loved every minute of it. There were so many tasks on my list. I needed to do them, but they didn’t get done. I know I’ll be very busy once I’m back in Florida, trying to get caught up!
This is what brought me back to myself! GOD put us here for a reason. We never know what our purpose is, and if we do discover it, that’s a blessing. I’m still not sure about mine. All I know is that I love my kids, my grandkids, and life, and all that it has to offer. Many people I had to cut off in life. They weren’t making life better. Instead, they caused grief and pain. Once you reach a certain age, your circle gets so small that you can count it on one hand. In my life, I have done so much for so many people and never gotten anything in return. Not that I was ever looking for something, but respect, and they don’t even give you that. But I gladly cut off my losses. When someone looks back and sees all the things I’ve done, it feels good. It validates my effort to make their life better. It shows that I did ok. But when I can’t see a thing they provided to my life, it’s a sign. It’s time to move on without them. (Take that as a lesson) It’s okay to walk away from what or who doesn’t deserve you in their life. God will replace them so fast, you won’t even miss them!
This week has shown me an important lesson. Life is to be lived with the most important people in your life. It is to be shared with them too. As I age gracefully, I have no intentions of dealing with anything or anyone that brings stress to my life. Being over 60 means every morning, your cup is full. You drink it till it’s empty. Then you fill it up again tomorrow because you may not have as many tomorrows as you had yesterday! So I fill my cup with love and laughter. It overflows with happiness. I fill it with the people who make my day better than it was yesterday. I’m back to me, and with more of me, I can give more to you! So look for me to spread all this love I still have to the ones that deserve it! Let me enjoy this holiday season with all this love I have to share!
The “Real Mommie Teresa”
Those days you wake up and want to talk to Mom, she’s gone. I wanna talk to Daddy, he’s gone. Maybe my Grandparents, they gone, my brothers, they gone too. GOD, do you have a moment to talk to me? Sometimes life is granted only thru the grace of GOD. To have lost your whole family is tough!! So many people don’t know how this feels, but it’s a heartache so deep that when you think about all you had, then all you lost, you will understand there is a GOD! Because with the heartaches that come with every loss, the heart still beats. Today, I had to question GOD.. why? But because of the relationship I have with GOD, I knew not to question HIS motives. My immediate answer was, “I saved you, and you’re gonna be as strong as you can be for someone else”. “GOD, sometimes I’m tired of being the strong one. How much can I bear?” GOD said, “you still have so much more to give, and I will continue to let your light shine as long as your heart beats”.
It’s been a minute since I’ve blogged and a lot of changes have happened in my life. So many that it’ll take lots of blogs to blog about!! LOL.. Well the most significant change in my life was the loss of my Father. As you all that follow me know, my Daddy was sick for quite a few years. He was diabetic, on dialysis, and had congestive heart failure which ultimately lead to his transition on Nov. 3rd of 2017. That day was one of the most confusing days of my life. You know we always think we are “prepared” for death, especially when someone is sick, and they have told you that they are ready to go. Well it’s easier said than done. I haven’t shared this story, but as a part of my healing, I have to let go of a few things…
e some time today just to talk about how I started Let’s Go Buy A Car and some of the obstacle of being a Business Owner. I know there are sooo many of you all that want to “quit that job” and have no idea how you can make it without “that job”! I was there too, for so many years! I’ve always wanted to own a business and work for myself, but FEAR of that “paycheck” kept me from moving forward. But once I was sick and tired, of being sick and tired of “that job” I realized, I was smart, I was tactful, I had lots of hustle, and I was not AFRAID! What’s the worst thing that could happen? Failure? But if I didn’t try, I’d never know if I could do it or not. I knew that on “that job”, I gave 199% of me, and that was for someone else! If I could give someone else MY 199%, I could give ME 500%! And that’s what I did! I was a Mom and raised 3 amazing kids on my own, and no “job” could ever be as challenging as that! So what did I have to lose? Make sure you follow and keep up with the blog. Some of my challenges and rewards could possibly help you “get started” to being your own Boss!
The Real Mommie Teresa 